There are a lot of things i want to talk about like my trip to IMH, C. Fitness, and also my "scolding" from my teacher ms A.T.

lets talk about the latest event.. that got me thinking about it.. that is the "scolding".well firstly to clarify things.. it is not a scolding exactly she wanted to scold me but she held back.. so maybe you can call it a lecture? but anyway the story goes..

i have an international conference that i talked about earlier in one of the post i suppose.. well it is from 1st to 6th July.. and the school paid quite a lot for each of my group to take part in it... about $500 per person.. Okay so we went to Suntec on sunday for the registration 1st July.. and on the spot we were brief and everything... well logically we were not asked to attend the whole thing.. but most of it to make the money worth... so we have decided Monday morning, whole of Wed and Thurs.. so it was decided like that... Monday was Youth Day my last one to be precise.. i have made plans.. i am not a person who coops inside the house the whole time after all.. you can't expect me to change it just like that... i am the sort who likes to or rather tries to follow the plan.. well that is me.. i hate sudden changes especially if the reason for the change is well NOT consider as a reason...

Okay so everything was set.. Monday morning.. i agreed to it despite my other plans.. i accepted it.. but XY went out on Sunday after our discussion and was saying she was tired to go for the monday morning thing... and just wanted to change to the evening time to listen to the lecture given by the Nobel prize winners.. well that was sudden i only knew about it in the night when she felt tired.. i meant what is the meaning of this... is this really a reason... i didn't tell that to her upfront.. but i just hate such stuffs.. Obviously, i said okay you guys go in the afternoon but i will not go.. in the morning i am expected to go with my mentor?! why?! i have nothing to talk to him seriously.. to be truthful i feel uncomfortable for dont know what reason... must i drag myself out just because the plans suddenly change?! well i made my choice i didn't want to... i told R and she told my mentor.. okay great everything is settled even thoughi felt a little piss..

Today Tuesday i went to school and recieved a msg from Ms. A.T saying she wants to meet me regarding the conference... i called up R and XY naturally.. but they got no such msg... so i went to see her...

The content of the meeting was... WHY didn't i go in the morning... obviously i told her.. cause R and XY wasn't going and i do not want to go alone.. and she started saying she have work along side with me through quite a number of projects.. and she thinks i am not committed.. my mentor said that too.. okay i didn't tell her this BUT excuse me.. please be realistic... this few days for the NCC attachment you have only inform me in the last minute... well not you maybe my group but i have my own stuffs.. i dont live for this only.. please respect others' commitment.. i have postpone some of my stuffs many times till i cant postpone it no more... i wont go sacrificing my money for my lesson for this thing... i am sorry! i will not and i can't... other time is the same.. i have my things... please dont expect me to be 100% committed to this cause i can't... so why dont you ask the people who LOVE to change stuffs in the last minute? why? cause you like to pick on me or are you too shallow and just observe stuffs on the surface? i dont know you tell me..

i still apologize to you for not going on Monday.. not because i think i am at fault.. but i think the part where you said you are the teacher and i should inform you not the mentor... so that i apologize.. it is my lack of responsibility and my lack of judgment to inform the wrong person... the person who for some reason would not say this out to me that he feels i am not committed... well lets take recent case.. i went there just for an hour and i have to rush back for my lesson.. just for that hour... i went there specially to realize the fact hat my mentor is not there.. i tried to do what i can without him only to be asked to stop... what you make me waste my time and you say i am not committed? some people just said they are not feeling well and did not come that day... perfectly normal?! i came when i am sick on my birthday I AM SUPPOSE TO DO THAT?! just a few extra times not being there... i am not committed... well perfect... thank you.. for being that shallow..

and now we are suppose to meet early tomorrow but my mentor took away my friends' id card... so they cant enter and he also will not go to the conference till 12.45.. well then we all are meeting at 12.45 is it?! and DONT YOU EVER DARE BLAME ME FOR NOT GOING IN THE MORNING MYSELF... because it is YOU who took my friends' id for your own wei da reason of not wasting the food there...

i will end it off here and i thank god that this conference is the last time and i seriously hope it will be the last time... cause i cant take anymore of your stupid accusations.. thank you very much..

i think i will leave the IMH and C fitness till next time... i cant continue writing after feeling that much anger flowing out of me... but ya... i still like to thank for the lessons they taught me...